long time no blog

well hello !

it’s been a little while. okay a long while. definitely longer than what i was wanting.

i don’t even know where to begin or what to say. cause honestly, i’ve been quite literally all over the place ! (mentally, not physically. i've just been home hah)

lots of good, and a fair bit of not so good. but hey, that’s life right !

ultimately i’m thankful. just thankful to be here, to be making it through.

i’ve decided to make myself a goal. and that is to post a blog every week for the rest of this year. now is there a good chance that this won’t happen? yes, yes there is. but i really really want to try! i'm going to do my best to commit and see how we go.

i’ve always been a goal sort of person. love making new goals, resolutions, pinterest boards, having a fresh starts. i love it all. but recently i found myself kind of straying away from that. i would always describe myself as a dreamer, but it’s almost like i accidentally and unintentionally pushed that part of myself out. which i don’t like. i want to get back into that.

so i’m starting with a little goal of writing blog posts ! what comes of it i don’t know, but hopefully it will maybe help you along the way. help you smile or feel less alone. all i want to do is make it a safe space. a safe space for you, and well a safe space for me too !

but i’m very excited about it. i’m excited to just reflect, and feel inspired and hopefully help. that’s what i like to do, help :)

i’m writing this on sunday evening, and i’ve found myself started to get the sundays scaries more and more. which basically just means i’m feeling a bit anxious about the week ahead. even though i really don’t have anything to be anxious about, it’s just a usual week. i just get nervous. because i know that i want to have a good week but i worry that i’ll find myself feeling flat.

but i went and watched the sunset for a bit, and after writing this i’m going to get myself something to eat, finish watching my gilmore girls episode, read and do a face mask.

but i’m going to (hopefully, as per the goal) be publishing blog posts each monday. to help me and you start our week off well, with a little encouragement. so maybe just maybe we’ll all feel a little less alone as we go into our weeks.

just know i love you. even though i may just be some typed out words on your screen, i really do love you.

you’ve got this. we’ve got this. remember to take deep breaths when you need to throughout this week.

you’re not ever alone. and i pinky promise, it’s going to be okay.

something i find that helps me too, is thinking of things you’re looking forward too. so why don’t you think of, journal about or even comment a thing or two you’re looking forward to this week! remember nothing is too little!

i’ll make my own little list too, so we can do it together.

this week i’m looking forward to:

• posting this blog ! i’m really excited to finally be getting back into it after wanting to but putting it off for so kong

• using my eye masks - i just recently bought a small pack of eye masks, and i would love to wake up and start my morning put them on and feeling refreshed !

• being organised - i also recently got this new notebook. just a simple a4 notebook, and i’ve started using it this last week for my to do lists. and i used it today to plan out tomorrow, and i’m just looking forward to trying my best each day and keeping on top of everything.

now what about you? try and think of 1 or 2 or 3 things. it honestly really helps when you have little things that are gonna make you happy. and it helps put things into perspective a bit when you maybe are going through a bit of a rough patch.

so i definitely recommend making a little list for yourself :)

well i guess that’s my first little blog post back.

i hope you have a wonderful wonderful week. and i very much look forward to chatting to you next week :)

keep shining x

jess